Green Vs White - Airflow Vs suffocation without a window

I am a person who needs the windows / doors open first thing morning. I dont know if you have experienced it, but it's the most peaceful, calm and dust settled down after a long day of buzzing motors on roads. Something about the early morning air that's bliss.

white - Doc vs Green - life, pic right out of discharge into home.... life that sustained over a month without been watered despite Agni / heatwaves welcomed me to eyes that was heavy filled with metallic colors and pungent smell of internal circulation of AC and those chemical mops.

I need to see that one single leaf, I need to see that sky, I need that airflow inside even if it triggers wheezing or eosinophilia. Lo and behold, here I was locked and pinned down in a room that's not more than 8/10 trust me no room enough other than one bed and an attender.

This is not a complaint space, I was unwell, I am supposed to be grateful for all the puncturing and tests and all those steroids that was pushed inside this body of mine so that I gain back my strength.  Coz on the 8th or 9th day I did cry out - do something so many of you doctors what on earth do something, Unbearable as it grew... but as I said the moment I walked into that room I cribbed. Hostpitals are not new to me every decade since my birth few things are out of my system meaning removed in form of surgery, but this time unique.

I cribbed about the color and found no window. Where I am supposed to be grateful that there was a team of doctors trying to fix me and nurses and family supporting, I am here cribbing how the room color should be sunshine rather than grey or black, I felt it was like a mourning space and to top it, GOSH no window. Unable to use Ac to the fever but chills and drills in every iota of the body and no window to let airflow. What more suffocation any amount of those nebulization's hardly helped.

I felt grateful only on the day of discharge where I could see the world which had greenery and airflow.  When divine or the inner self or higher self-created such wonderful natural and free thing called trees and air, why then do we cut them off in the name of modernization, when will we have windows and open spaces? Traditional homes in India had a center space open to sky where a Tulasi plant was placed and 24/7 oxygen supply. Why then are we suffocating ourselves with matchbox homes? 

We think we are living in Independent India while we are still allowing stripping and ripping off homes which was rich in villa mode to matchboxes thinking a man made swimming pool is better than that river bed and tall high rise buildings glass based with cement rather than mud or lemnonstone or redoxide flooring that grounded us. 

Unless one experiences headache its hard to understand, unless I describe this Void of no airflow and colors in life missing its going to be hard for you to also relate. Three key takeaways.

1. Anything that hits hard in the body does not happen over night, it means clearly one has ignored health over what ever the so called priority in life that's been given to. Body needs its own rest i have been postponing it. This time it said you want to live? you want to continue to be caregiver? First take care of this body of yours.

Running behind to catch-up on schooling, higher edu, moneymaking, caregiving unto another... body kept telling me often to pause i dint listen, Humble request is listen to your body if you are just like me. I am grateful to a few people in my life who always asked me to take care of me genuinely, not a lip level. Its not that i dint listen to them, i postponed it to the phase that there is no more energy even to type this.

 

2. Don't run behind what looks glittery and in trend, learn to pause, learn to appreciate nature around you, GIVE back to mother nature in your own little way. Leave behind atleast one tree in your own space so the next generation has something to breathe naturally rather than from an oxygen tank. 

3. Sharing is caring, Sharing I went on a vacation is boosting. Sharing challenges and experiences and how to overcome that is caring. what is the next share you are going to do on your digital foot print or to just one another person in your life? I pray that's caring rather than bosting. Rest is not just physical, its also mental rest and emotional rest that one should ensure to bounce back. Take your own holiday. There is a huge difference between holiday and vacation which i will share next.

Share this with someone you care who is neglecting their own health in the name of running behind and catching up on every tiny detail of their life.